Yay!

I get to go home tomorrow! I moved to Ohio about 4 months ago, and haven't been back to Tennessee since. I haven't seen my friends in 4 months! I haven't seen my cats in 4 MONTHS! I haven't seen Aleigha and Desmond IN 4 MONTHS! OMFG, I am so excited! I'm only going to home for two nights, but I don't care, as long as I get to hangout with the most wonferful friends in the world! I have been homesick since the day I got here. Nothing is the same, and I can't even call my mom anymore to complain. Instead I just keep it in and move on. This weekend, though, it's going to feel like old times again, and I can't wait. I can't wait to hug my friends, pet my cats, kiss my niece and nephew, argue with my dad, sleep in my twin bed, all the things people take for granted, including me, I can't wait to do, if only for two nights.

xoxo

Update:

Well lesbians, I haven't been on my blog in months, as you've probably noticed. There is good reason for that though. The last time I blogged was to give good news about my mom, now, 8 months later I am back. Most of you already know, but for my new readers and friends, you need a little catching up. Last November my mom was told she may have lung cancer, in January, though, she was deemed cancer free, and in March, March 7th to be exact, she passed away. No, it wasn't cancer, my mom died of a stroke. I was right next to her when she died, but I had no idea it was happeneing until it was too late. My dad was also in the room, and tried to give her cpr while we waited for the ambulance. For a minute, when the ems workers were giving her cpr I thought she was back, but then they kicked us out of the room, only to emerge an hour later telling me she was gone, and that they "did everything they could." I swear it felt like a giant boulder hit me right in the stomach when I heard those words, and no matter what they said they did to try and save her, I still believe they could have done more.

Since then, I have moved out of my parents' house, and now reside in Mason, Ohio with my oldest sister, Stacy. I still work at Kroger's (grocery store) as a floral clerk, and I enjoy it. I struggle with the loss of my mom every day, but it's something I have to live with, and I manange to push through the tears. I miss my friends, family, and pets in Tennessee so bad, but I know this move was the best thing I could have done. I was supposed to start school September 9th, but the class was full, so now I will start in November, which bummed me out a little, but now I have more time to save up money. Anyways, I am glad I waited this long to blog, otherwise it would have been atleast 100 pages long, and full of emotions, and I wouldn't want to put you through that, not that you'd read it, lol.

I miss you guys so much, seriously, I used to spend so much time just chatting and laughing with you, and you really helped me forget all my problems. Now that I think of it, I could have spent a little less time on the net, and a little more time with my mom, who was always in the next room, listening to me laugh out loud with you, but that's not the way things played out. I'm sorry for just dropping off the planet for the past 5 or six months, but I'm sure you can understand why I had to.

Hope all is well!

Love Always,
Kimmaayy..!

I'm happy to report...

My mom found out this morning that she is cancer free. =) My family and I are all very relieved to find this out. I don't know how I would have reacted if the news was different, thankfully I don't have to worry about that.

xoxo

Thoughts and prayers to those who have had to deal with such tragedies as cancer in their families.

Hi, I'm Kim, and I'm here to help.

It's been a while since I've visited the blogosphere, so I thought I would drop by to give you some more nonsensical information about my pitiful lesbian life. As most of you know, my fruit cutting days are over, and I have been moved to the floral department. This is something I never really thought of myself doing, I mean, I never used to say "When I grow up I want to be a florist in the local grocery store!" No, that's not how I pictured things, exactly. But, now that I'm here, I might as well get the most out of my "career." I have to say, though, so far I have really enjoyed my job. I mean, not everyone gets to play with beautiful flowers all day and get paid for it, do they? Oh, and what's even better, I get to blow up balloons!!! Yeah, they trust me with the gigantic tank of hellium, I know, crazy! Anyways, I can't really complain, cause there are so many out there who are losing their jobs, and losing their houses, and so much more, so I am greatful for the opportunities I have, and eventhough it's not what I had planned out for myself, I will make the best of it, and hopefully learn some things along the way. So, if you ever find yourself in Spring Hill, Tennessee, and you are in need of some really pretty flowers, come find me in the floral department of Kroger's, and I'm sure I can help you find the perfect bouquet for the occasion. =)

Music is the love of my life.

It's always there for me, no matter what, no matter where I am, and no matter what I am feeling.

When I'm sad, when I mad, when I'm drunk, when I'm glad, it doesn't matter what my mood is, music can always make it better. The lyrics run through my mind and sometimes I don't even notice them, they just stream in one ear and out the other, but other times I can be listening so deeply that the lyrics seem like they are being sung just for me. Music can wrap around my soul when I am feeling alone, and if only for a moment, make everything okay. Sometimes, when I want to get away from reality, all I have to do is search for the perfect song. It can also take me back and remind me of a certain time in my life, or a certain person I've met along the way. The power of music seems endless to me, and that's a comforting thought in a world that is so unpredictable.

Something for me to ponder.

A few of my loved ones seem to think I am high maintenance...something I thought I would never hear when being described. Fun? Yes. Crazy? A little. High maintenance? No way. I mean, sure, I have to do my hair and make up before I will leave the house, and yes, I change my outfit like 3 times a day, and of course there is the fact that I have to bring my make up everywhere I go in case I need a touch up, but does that make me high maintenance? I don't think so, but apparently some people would beg to differ. I always thought high maintenance women were a turn off, and I definitely don't want to be a turn off....Dammit!

Love always,
Your high maintenance, alcoholic, democratic, optomistic, lesbian, Kimmaayy..!

I'm in a shitty mood today...

Work sucked. I snuck out an hour early since no one was around to train me, lol.

Then I had to go back for a 4 hour orientation....BORING! I met a couple cool people though...

Missed Grey's Anatomy...

Not really feeling like making a voogle, but I think I'm going to force myself.

Everyone is getting on my nerves! My Dad keeps talking about bullshit, my Brother is just an ass 24/7, and my sister came over with my niece, and she was so obnoxious and loud!

I'm in such a betchy mood!

Anyhoo....BOOBS! (.Y.)